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Nov. 28th, 2008 | 12:31 am
mood: gloomy gloomy

"Don't think you can ever hide from me! if I want to I WILL find you! and I can make your life hell! have a shit day! :)"

It sickens me that after all his threats and nastiness.. I just feel like kissing him and never let him go.

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All definate...

Oct. 22nd, 2008 | 03:30 pm
mood: nervous nervous

We're moving back to Adelaide.
Don't know exactly when - whenever they find a tenant.. could be 2 weeks.. could be a month... but we're out of here before December anyway because that's when the lease runs out :)

I'm excited... but the drive back is DEPRESSING ME!! :p

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Blah...

Oct. 20th, 2008 | 08:22 pm
mood: angry angry

This morning LLoyd spoke to Cresta.. and said to her that it feels fantastic to be at home, because he doesn't need to ask permission to do anything - and he can do whatever the hell he wants. He also told her that he can do better than me. Later on his friend added me on myspace probably just to rub in my face the pictures of them all out drunk together lol.
Anyone would think I'm the bad guy here? Lol, ah... I feel so angry... I just want to drive over to his house and yell so hard it hurts.. but it won't change anything.. he is so selfish and self-absorbed that it's no point.. The biggest part of me never wants to see him again. OH, and today... he asked for the engagement ring back so he can sell it. Lol, why the fuck did I settle for such an inconsiderate bastard.

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:(

Oct. 19th, 2008 | 10:55 pm
mood: numb numb

I'm really weird in that I can sense when people are lying - I don't know why or how, but I know instantly when someone tells me a lie.. I can hear their breathing change and even the look in their eyes. I was the one who told Austin that he cheated on me... If I hadn't have known he would have happily kept it from me forever. Anyway, Lloyd told lies about little things... and even though I'd confront him about it, he'd continue lying.... For the past 8 months he had me believing that he was in a 3 year relationship with a really nasty girl - who just got up and left him a few weeks before meeting me... So many more details like how she treated him, and what they'd do together.. and what not.. Anyway, the other day I was curious to see what she looked like.. so I asked what her last name was so I could myspace her... He got 'really' funny about it and made up a last name which I knew was a lie straight away. This started to worry me a bit, because I assumed he had something to hide if he wasn't honest about it - anyway I told him to stop lying to me, and that if he continued to I'd have to end it.. because more than anything else I hate liars. He swore on my life that he would be honest. Even after saying that he gave me another 'false' name and then said that he 'couldn't remember it'... I was just like "I'm sorry Lloyd but you don't just forget someone's last name who you've been with for 3 years"... I had had enough, and I told him I was over his lies ... so I went for a drive, didn't tell him where I was going... I only went to the shops and had a coffee with my mum, so I was probably out for max 2 hours. Anyway, I came home, started to read a book outside near the dam. He charged up to me and grabbed me around the waist and said "I'm so tempted to throw you in the dam right now".... I was like "What the hell? What have I done?" and he goes "You didn't tell me where you were going, I don't know who you've been with!"... and I say "LLoyd, you're the liar here... what are you accusing ME of".... He walked off, came back with a bucket of water and threatened to pour it on my head.. to which I called him a pig.. and he replied "At least I'm not a slut".. That really hurt. I couldn't even reply... knowing that I've never been anything but honest and upfront about every aspect of my life with him - and he had the nerve to call me the most offensive thing anyone has ever said to me. So, I proceeded to our room - and I packed his things.... this was 5 days ago.

The other day he came to see me at work, and told me he'd 'changed' and that he'd be honest from now on - he then told me that the reason he got so paranoid about giving me her last name - was because he was never actually 'with' her.. they were always just friends and he just kept the lie going to me. He said it got harder and harder to lie to me, but he was too scared to tell me the truth. Why he couldn't have just been honest from the start baffles me... maybe it was some sick way to gain pity, to have me thinking that he was treated so badly - and I wanted to prove to him so bad that he could be treated the way he deserved to be. Lies upon lies...and it makes me sick that I felt sorry for him when he'd "open up" about her always cheating on him... which of course was all lies too.

I hate hate hate lies... I think it's the fastest way to kill a relationship, because not only is it being so unfair it makes you lose all trust in that person. I've thought about giving him another chance... but I can't forgive him.. I don't want to turn into the possessive paranoid girlfriend because I have to question him millions of times to finally get the truth. Plus, I don't fancy being called names.. or threatened... or pushed around by someone who supposedly loves me.

But anyway, my parents are talking about moving back to Adelaide.. I probably wouldn't care either way... at least I'll have my friends in Adelaide.. here I have no one, and it just makes things worse sitting around because I think and stress about everything more. Blah....

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My exciting day off work!

Sep. 26th, 2008 | 08:28 pm
mood: bored bored

Not much has been happening.. Coral and Cresta left for Adelaide on Wednesday, so the house feels really empty without them. Earlier on in the week we all went out as a family to Mt. Tamborine... I noticed in the crystal shop there was a lady doing tarot card reading.. so I got mine done :) She was no way near as good as the last lady I saw... but some stuff she said was probably what I really needed to hear, regardless of the fact that it could apply to anyone :P Soon as I sat down she said that I'm like an old person, trapped in a young body.. because I'm so fearful and I think too much, and if I can't see what's at the end of the road - I won't go down it. She said I just need to stop worrying full stop, otherwise I'll always be too afraid to go anywhere in life. She said I should stop focusing on making the 'wrong' decision, because there is no 'wrong' decision in life, because we're here to learn, and everything is a learning experience. What she said really made me think though, that it's so true.. and I should really learn to let go. Anyway, I came home and applied for a Diploma in Photography.. Not sure when I'll hear back but I'm proud of myself for taking the step, because before I've been so scared about whether I'd be good enough, whether I could afford it... etc etc etc... I'm working for Cold Rock again, it's all been sorted... I worked at Surfer's Paradise 3 times this week... I thought it'd be hell driving there but it wasn't so bad afterall... and I like the store because there aren't any cameras... not being I do the wrong thing, but I don't like the thought of someone watching me who I can't see.

Sometimes I wish we'd move back to Adelaide... like today for instance, Lloyd had work.. so I stayed at home and did absolutely nothing. I mean yes, there's so much more to do here, but what's the good in that if you have no one to 'do' it with? Maybe I'll just wait for my engagement party, that way Lloyd can see what Adelaide is like.. and we'll go from there. I would move back, but I don't think me having my friends, and a better job would outweigh the pain of not being with my family?

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So today did it for me..

Sep. 18th, 2008 | 04:51 pm
mood: distressed distressed

I already thought Cold Rock were way too fucking picky and anal about 'everything' but today they took it to a whoolle new level.

This morning, I was working at Varsity Lakes - where the owners always are.. they watched me like fucking hawks as I opened the store, all fine.. Everything was done, and spotless so I started refilling some of the lolly jars.. then one of them goes "Oh Carly, you're doing that WAY too early.. you don't do that till later"... Does it make a fucking difference whether I do it at 11 or 2pm? Would they rather I just lean against a cupboard and do shit all?

Then, again... store was SPOTLESS because I had like max 5 customers in the 6 hours I was there... I had left a piece of paper and a masking tape roll out and the manager goes "Carly, put them away so you can get the store tidy"... 1, the store was fucking sparkling... 2, IT'S A PIECE OF FUCKING PAPER. Don't think the inspectors will come through and blow their rocket because we have some stationery on the bench....

What REALLY did it though, was the fact that I've been told that we need 2 days notice to make a cake for a customer... Every single person I've worked with have turned down every person who asks for a cake sooner than that. So... today, a man walked in and asked if he could get a cake for tomorrow, I apologized and said we need at least 48 hours notice... Then, Wicked Witch must have heard me, because she storms through and butts in "Carly! NEVER say NO to a customer! You sould know better! We always want to please the customer! NEVER SAY NO CARLY!".. Went off her fucking rocket to me with the customer standing there just watching. Very humiliating.. So I kind of wandered off, obviously upset... she comes up to me and goes "Yeah Carly, you should have known that" and I said... "Well, I was told different, I was only doing what I was told - and that was very humiliating of you, you could have just had a word with me after the customer had left" ... then she goes " But this is MY business, you listen to ME, not all the other staff who show you different".. to which I replied " Yes, but obviously you've been placing me with people who are supposed to TRAIN me, and obviously me being NEW, I'm going to watch and learn" then she goes " Yeah well they're not supposed to hand feed you and it's here in RED writing that you never say no"....... I kind of gave up, she's not the kind of person who likes being talked back to.

 

But what a load of shit. Screw their job.

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Aug. 28th, 2008 | 02:39 pm
mood: bored bored

 

u gonna be upto anything tonight?

carly says:

same old

carly says:

hover around the house

carly says:

like a helium balloon

Dave says:

well if i was free i'd love to grab a hot or something with you but i'm busy till 9:30

carly says:


it's ok, I've got a date with msn anyway

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..wtf..

Aug. 28th, 2008 | 01:50 pm
mood: depressed depressed

So I've been wondering lately, what the fucking point of life is.

We work our ass off for 90% of our life, in a job most of us hate.. to buy things that don't even matter in the slightest when we die.. Some people say they love life, and that they are thankful every day for it. I personally think it's the worst thing someone can do.. bring someone else into the World.. Everything is so corrupt..  rapists, murderers, animal abusers, child abusers.. What purpose on this World does an innocent child being abused have? We're like puppets...  Is someone upstairs getting a kick out of it? We suffer continually, lose people we love, hate ourselves and wish everyday for a different lifestyle... all for what? It all means nothing in the end.. nothing lasts..  That is why, I'm kind of put off ever having a family.. I hate this World and the day that I close my eyes can't really come quick enough.

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So I'm jobless... lol

Aug. 12th, 2008 | 04:37 pm
mood: annoyed annoyed

To Robert & Peter,


12/08/08


With this letter Carly and Lloyd resign from the Warehouse Tavern.


Throughout the 6 months we’ve been employed by the Fraser Scott company there have been countless issues which have constantly been ignored by you and your staff.


Some of these issues include:


-  Important health and safety issues throughout the kitchen (ie: no storage space, no hot water hose for effective cleaning, cheap faulty equipment  etc). Also when the exhaust fans have shut down and we’ve been directed to continue working under these dangerous conditions - where temperatures reach over 45 degrees - and the room is filled with smoke.


- Working 14 hours straight and not being able to have a break - due to a lack of staff members which the company can’t afford to employ.


- Assigning your employees a job title which they are incorrectly paid for. For example Lloyd being the Sous Chef - who runs the kitchen in Cory’s absence - gets paid the same wage as a dishwasher.


- Sexual and Verbal harassment from the head chef, Cory Ryther. Incidents include commenting on the majority of female staff’s bodies and what he’d like to do to them. This alone has made the Warehouse an extremely intimidating and disgraceful place to be a part of.


- The fact that we’re blamed for the negligence of the kitchen, when our Head Chef isn’t even present for 90% of service time;  every day of the week. Time and time again Cory has informed us that ‘anything goes, if he doesn’t see it” - so this lack of leadership and procedure cannot leave us to blame in the event of an incident.


-In Lloyd’s case of being accused for being intoxicated and under the influence of drugs whilst at work is highly disrespectful considering other Managers such as Jade attend work still recovering and bragging about the drugs and alcohol her and her friends were consuming the night before.  Both Lloyd and I are non- drinkers, drug abusers or smokers. During our 6 months of service never have we called in sick or left the kitchen unattended, even when Lloyd couldn’t walk properly for 12 weeks. This punctuality and devotion to our work is obviously not noticed.


The Warehouse Tavern has gone through countless staff members, Manager’s who aren’t even qualified in their area of expertise according to their resume. And the Warehouse will continue to lose good staff because of the careless “deal with it” attitude of our management.


Quite simply the Warehouse is a sinking ship, and we’d rather not be aboard whilst it goes down.  


We apologize for the short notice, but we were told we could be replaced within an hour, so we’re sure it will be no inconvenience.

 

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